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Struggling with Severe Mental Illness: The Story of Maisie

December 7, 2019

[Sally Bourke]: Maisie is extremely clever. Very creative,
very entertaining. [Maisie Bourke]: Can we make it more like a mountain? [Sally Bourke]: But, she’s always been challenging. She’s always just pushed the limits
and boundaries. But she’s so loving and she’s got
a lovely character. That I never thought there was some
label that needed to be attached to her
for me to understand my child. I feel like her childhood has
been snatched away from me. [MAISIE] [Sally Bourke]: I’m Sally Bourke. I live in Hull
in East Yorkshire. I’m Maisie’s mum,
Maisie’s thirteen and currently she’s in a hospital for
children with mental health issues in Sheffield. Going to see Maisie every time it’s
not just popping into the car and nipping to the local hospital when
your child is poorly and you’re on visiting times; It’s planning a journey: so, making sure that I’ve got enough fuel in my tank, making sure that I’ve got my water topped up. A bag of washing. I have to do laundry every week. [Paper bag rustles as she puts it down] [Sally Bourke]: So, we’ve got to hit the road because it takes an hour. I try to put fifty minutes extra in case there’s any hold-ups. Erm.. and, sometimes it’s difficult to get packed. So, I’ve got to get on the road and hope that the traffic”s kind. [Bag rustles] [Door opens] [Bag rustles] [Trunk/Boot opens] [Bag rustles] [Bag rustles] [Bag rustles] [Bag rustles] [Trunk/Boot closes] [Keys jingle] [Key turns in lock] [Car door opens] [Ignition revs up] [Car door closes] [Engine runs as car backs up] [Sound of car driving] [Sally Bourke]: This is West End; what used to be our unit in Hole for children that are sufferiing with mental health issues. Because it’s shut, erm.. Maisie’s now in Sheffield; but, if that was open, Maisie could just be there which is about a mile away from home. When I had my baby, I was- I was only young myself and.. I was overwhelmed by the responsibility and having to put somebody else before me. Erm.. And, it was quite a shock to the system. But I knew, even at that young age, that that baby was my world. And even though lots of people thought that I was an idiot for having a child so young; I wanted to prove that, even though I was young, that.. my child was going to turn out awesome. And, she has! [Sound of car driving] [Sound of traffic] [Sally Bourke]: Seeing Maisie hit milestones and being motivated; it’s worth all the hard work and all the nights of crying babies and changing nappies and.. all those days where you wish you could pull your hair out. And, I swear, you’re not allowed to- you can’t go out partying because you haven’t got a babysitter, or you can’t afford it, ’cause the kids have needed shoes. [Sound of traffic] [Ominous music] [Sally Bourke]: That I’m aware of, Maisie started self-harming in December of 2013. [Ominous music] [Sally Bourke]: I came home from work, and found her trying to stab herself with a pair of scissors. [Ominous music] [Sally Bourke]: Some days, it haunts me more than other days. There was.. a few months(?).. where I would replay her life. Replay events where (I thought) “How could I have missed it?” I felt that.. I let her down. [Sound of car driving] [Ominous music] [Sound of traffic] [Ominous music] [Sally Bourke]: At the moment, I’ve got butterflies going in my stomach. I’m always apprehensive before I go on any visit to see Maisie, wondering what I’m going to hear; if she’s had any incidents, or what kind of mood she’s going to be in. If I’m going to get any reports that sometimes are quite hard to hear. [Ominous music] [Sally Bourke]: I officially stopped work last March; but, actually, when Maisie went away in December, I didn’t- didn’t go back to work, from the December (on). Teaching is, erm.. you know, you can’t just get away with- like, (if) you’re having a bad day, when you’re in charge of thirty children in a class. Because, erm, you can’t wing it; you’ve got to know your stuff. So, Maisie had to come first; I had to make a choice. And, of course, my kids come first; they always have. [Sound of gas tank and gas meter] [Click] [Closing fuel cap] [Sound of car driving] [Sound of traffic] [Sally Bourke]: She already feels guilty, Maisie does; saying: “Mum, you’ve got to travel all this way.” It’s all about money. “What? You spend it on coming to see me?” She carries that burden; which is just not fair. A girl of 13 (years old) to- to feel that (way). Especially when she’s in hospital, poorly. [Sound of car driving] [Somber music with the sound of traffic] [Sally Bourke]: I don’t think (that the) professional people that make all these decisions about these units closing and, you know, (the ones that say) “Oh, we’ll just put a child in a- in a bed anywhere”; I don’t think (that) they realize the physical effects that that (decision) has on family members, you know? Not just the dynamics of time and, you know, if you work; it’s.. emotionally exhausting. [Music] [Sally Bourke]: Yeah, I’ve still got the butterflies. As I get closer to the unit, at the- um, wind turbines, near the M1, that’s when I start to focus on positive things: what has happened everyday, what I’m going to tell Maisie about. So, I have to almost rake through with a fine-toothed comb of information; bits of information that I think she would be able to cope with, without getting too jealous that’s she’s missed out. It’s quite difficult; I don’t get it right every time. [Music] [Sally Bourke]: Being a Mum was about teaching this, and (having a) person that looks up to you, and.. (it) almost is a blank page; and trying to give her the tools to see what’s right and wrong in the world. [Somer music] [Sally Bourke]: I can’t sleep at night. I- I feel so tired. Erm.. Because, laying in bed knowing that her bed’s empty, and that she’s in.. a bed that’s miles away from home; [Holding back tears] um.. it is- [Tears in eyes] it’s horrible. [Holding back tears] I-i- it’s horrible; knowing that if she needs me, that I can’t just be there for her. I’m low away, and.. I can’t look after her and give her a hug, and.. [Holding back tears] it’s just wrong; it’s cruel. It’s too cruel. [Crying] [Takes a deep breath] It’s cruel for Maisie, and- and it’s cruel for me. [Sound of car driving] [Sally Bourke]: It shouldn’t be like this. [Somber music] [Music] [Music and sound of traffic]


  • Reply anima 09 April 25, 2018 at 6:25 am

    Meanwhile we stuck 6hours on the road to go and home

  • Reply Vicky Guillen April 26, 2018 at 2:34 am

    Wtf was that!? I'm glad I wasted 10 min waiting to see "Maise"

  • Reply Marcus Andrade April 28, 2018 at 4:32 pm

    Where is her accent from?

  • Reply L0L0KAY April 29, 2018 at 2:53 am

    The Story of Maisies Mother

  • Reply Do you. Be you. May 1, 2018 at 8:19 pm

    1 – misleading
    2 – who subbed this? the details were too much sometimes. "[tears in her eyes]" I'm deaf, not blind.

  • Reply Tanner Schmitz May 2, 2018 at 6:49 am

    I grew up in very rural Montana and we had to drive around 350 miles one way to get to adequate health care services.

  • Reply Sofia Ornellas May 3, 2018 at 1:10 am

    But how much are you going to pay for Harry’s wedding?

  • Reply DiCE May 4, 2018 at 12:11 pm

    Should be titled, a drive with maisies mom

  • Reply Some random youtube channel May 9, 2018 at 3:04 pm

    How was this about mental illness at all? I'm not really sure if they ever figured out the angle on this one.

  • Reply Omen Nemo May 16, 2018 at 12:56 am

    Where's Maise?

  • Reply forever a patriot May 21, 2018 at 11:30 pm

    Again if the taxes were ysed for citizens instead of refugees. Hmm?

  • Reply Patricia Egan May 27, 2018 at 5:32 am

    How's the partying going for ya.

  • Reply Laura Riddle May 27, 2018 at 5:58 am

    ANYONE who was diagnosed with a mental illness should be tested for porphyria. As someone with the condition, who was at first thought to have a mental illness, almost everyone with porphyria, whom I've talked to, has also been misdiagnosed with a mental illness.

  • Reply Annemarie Mathews May 27, 2018 at 9:11 am

    It’s all about you

  • Reply attic Slabs May 28, 2018 at 4:20 pm

    Ummmm…. Worst coverage I've ever seen. What!

  • Reply Tobz 4uHuni May 30, 2018 at 3:31 am

    I think the problem is with the mom, not the little girl.

  • Reply D. Oom May 31, 2018 at 5:33 am

    This is so sad. I feel like a lot of you are missing the story..or don't have kids?

  • Reply Rachael Moncaster June 1, 2018 at 12:22 am

    I used to be in a Mental unit when I was 13 too.

  • Reply Nettles' Cats June 4, 2018 at 12:50 am

    Why would her daughter even know that mum is struggling to get gas money? She would only know this if mum MENTIONED IT TO HER. Nice going, mum.

  • Reply G Lee June 4, 2018 at 4:42 am

    I love how they didnt automatically include subtitles because shes english and yet i needed them more for her than any for other foreign language. Interesting accent. And why didnt we see her daughter or discuss her illness in depth? This video needs to be retitled.

  • Reply MoonwolfeConsulting June 4, 2018 at 6:59 am

    I, I, I, I, I…..clickbait!!!!! Focus on the child, not her whining mother.

  • Reply Lisa Schumacker June 5, 2018 at 1:33 am

    Had to turn the video off ,, l couldn't understand a word what they were saying

  • Reply Brigitte dewit June 5, 2018 at 2:43 am

    I agree misleading show her if it is about her

  • Reply Brigitte dewit June 5, 2018 at 2:48 am

    You are the whin more than a baby just deal with it we have to drive 4 hours to a hospital

  • Reply FlyingMonkies325 June 6, 2018 at 11:26 pm

    It's jsut so wrong how The System fails people especially parents and kids with Disabilities or Mental Health problems and through my own experiences i know what it feels like, in school, wasting 5 and a half years in college courses only to get no where… bullied and demeaned even by teachers and blamed for the faliures of the system even a few teachers claming "I think you may have a Learning Difficulty i just don't know what…", don't know what? talking out their bloody ass lol how can they say that then not know what? and that's where labels start and they can cause stigmas and complicate peoples lives more than it is, how many people out there are walking around believeing they truely have Learning Difficulties or even ADHD when they really dont? when it's just their own way of thinking and percieveing things? and schools and colleges it's a very one-side-fits-all system, society in general runs on this notion that one-size truely does fits all but it really doesn't… not for everyone and people should be taught in way they can understand… even kids with Disabilities, Mental Health Issues and Disabiltiies and parents should be helped and given the skills they need through the councelier to help them with their childs special needs… but nobody should be labeled or treated like they have any difficulties for the failiures of the system and Support shouldn't be taken away… it's just horrible and cruel.

    Schools especially are meant to help people from a child to teach them skills towards their Adult Life to help them with many situations in their life and for Work within a Work Based Lifestyle but it's just HUGELY unrealisitc and not AT ALL useful to anybody of all walks of life… in primary sure… filling in work sheets and doing little math problems is fine they're just kids it's all they need… but from High School things need to be changed into a more realisitc way of learning now that they're getting close to an Adult and even those with Disabilities, Mental Health Problems, Legitimate Learning Difficulties it's imperitive they need to know how to look after themselves when they're an Adult and know how to navitage the systetm because nobodies parents will be around forever… it's not a question on what people do or don't need… and it shouldn't come into question for the sake of money…

    I myself at 27 i'm having to play catch up now that i totally understand what happened to me and people still try to do, what happens to others and it really does make me feel angry, ashamed, angry, frustrated, restless, depressed, anxious and i suffer with hormone issues which just adds to the depression and anxiety i feel (if IT IS that or it's just how i feel i have no idea), i just really do feel ashamed of the planet we live on the way we're made to live and complicated situations we're put in that doesn't at all need to happen and i just try to learn things for myself now i don't give my trust to others because i know it would just be a waste of time, i've just been sitting around at home and even my parents understand they won't be around forever and i need to work i need to find a job but that's just been SO difficult because i was never really taught anything useful and i feel stupid i put my trust into anyone to do that i don't blame myself in any way just i can't believe i let myself be put through so much to lead to the problems i now face and i feel that's one of the problems mothers with kids with Disabilities, Mental Health Problems, Learning Difficulties face too not knowing if they can truely put their trust in someone to help.

  • Reply Pranvi Prabhakaran June 7, 2018 at 5:53 am

    Accent reminds me of Sophie from 2 broke girls xD

  • Reply LXG June 25, 2018 at 10:36 pm

    At least fix the title up, super misleading. Vice being vice for clicks again.

  • Reply Rachel X. July 12, 2018 at 3:36 am

    WTF?? 10 mins of watching someone drive while they blab!? I'm sure whoever filmed this could have found much more interesting/entertaining stuff to show when discussing a child's mental health disorder…. Like, maybe show the actual child?
    Not the brightest director I suppose because I could've recorded and assembled something better out of my garage~!
    EDIT: LoL I just saw it has almost as many dislikes as likes. I knew I wasn't being cynical! =)

  • Reply Olivia Hegarty July 17, 2018 at 6:14 pm

    During a time where we're having a mental health epidemic why does the nhs/hse feel the need to cut psych services?

  • Reply Olivia Hegarty July 17, 2018 at 6:22 pm

    does anybody know how old her daughter is? X

  • Reply Nicolette James July 18, 2018 at 7:43 pm

    Are there actually any videos about maisie, not just her mom?

  • Reply Phenomenal Woman August 4, 2018 at 11:22 pm

    What the hell is this?clearly we all wanted to see the baby they were talking about…smh…the ENTIRE STORY is the mom talking about her. ANYWAY GOD BE WITH THE BABY THEY TALKED ABOUT THAT THEY NEVER LET US SEE…. WE LOVE YOU???❤❤❤?☝

  • Reply Chucky USA August 10, 2018 at 12:37 am

    Vice, you are very, very fake news..SAD!

  • Reply David Helmer August 10, 2018 at 4:17 am

    Solid road trip, but I wish the music was more upbeat.

  • Reply Deepwood Motte August 27, 2018 at 3:16 pm

    13 years of age, incarcerated and probably drugged to the teeth!

    If I ever met her "carers", I would put in a pretty line and escort them with a flash thought, to the gas chambers!

  • Reply Denali Star August 31, 2018 at 4:08 am

    I got 5 minutes in and was already bored to death. Reading the comments, it doesn't seem to get much better. Glad I'm not wasting more time watching this!

  • Reply John Gilmour September 5, 2018 at 4:33 am

    mental health disorders in canadian children? the canadian news service could very well be the offending culprit!
    I have watch the evening news, spew out, horror, after horror, of events "NOT IN CANADA" but a puppy dog, burned to death in a pet shop fire – "SOMEWHERE IN CHINA"??? a lady being swallowed by a python Not in Canada, but SOMEWHERE IN VENEZUELLA??? 300 people died in a building fire "NOT IN CANADA But in "SIBERIA"??? now whoever has designed this protocol of news, to be spewed into canadian living rooms MORNING , NOON, and NIGht, has an evil agenda, these are not events canadians can do anything about we have enough on our own home plate to dismay us, without filling our plate to overflowing, with atrocities from all over the world! IT HAS TO STOP, there has to be a stop placed on such depressing events, placed into our living rooms, and a new government should be a most welcome start Turn Off your Canadian News, it is poisoning your childrens mind, it runs like subliminal programming!
    In My Opinion!

  • Reply Josh Randolph September 8, 2018 at 3:23 am

    Never saw the freak show kid once. Terrible video and the mother is a horrible boring story teller.

  • Reply Conni- Switzerland September 8, 2018 at 10:56 am

    I did not understand? what the girl's problem is…?

  • Reply Lynn Wallish September 8, 2018 at 1:00 pm

    That was 10 minutes of a woman driving a car.

  • Reply Irais Teran September 29, 2018 at 4:40 am

    My boyfriend recomends niacin is selling by gnc group, starts with one pill by day until 3 by day, the treatment is until 3000 mg by day but i think its imposible, here in Mexico sells another aminoacids good for the brain. My sister has it. The doctor who studied this and probe it said that is a kind of posesion but nobody believed him.

  • Reply Violet Heroine October 3, 2018 at 4:05 pm

    This was not Maisie's story. This was Sally's story. At least be honest.

  • Reply Belle Colbert October 17, 2018 at 12:53 am

    where's the story?

  • Reply Casey M October 29, 2018 at 5:11 am

    there is no maisie, dun dun dunnnnnnnn

  • Reply gaming with diego October 29, 2018 at 11:10 pm

    What type of mental promblem does she have

  • Reply Chelsea dreadlocks Travers November 5, 2018 at 3:16 pm

    I remember when I was in hospital, my mum couldn’t see me

  • Reply The Native Shoshone November 13, 2018 at 2:55 am

    Aww Vice what happened?
    You are getting the side eye. YOU use to be great ? I'm wondering ?. Sigh
    Where's Maisie. Ugh.

  • Reply ThatLoserNextDoor November 18, 2018 at 11:48 pm

    I honestly I think I could relate Maisie just because it must have been hard for her to be living 24/7 at a hospital not knowing when you’ll be released. I have anorexia and trauma. I was put into inpatient earlier this year. I was there for 2 months. Being 12 I was the youngest person there and I couldn’t relate to anyone. Even the teens since they were all in high school. Not only that my family lived 8 hours away by car from the hospital so they couldn’t visit me at all during that time. They were over 500 miles away. I’m a little disappointed that the video didn’t really tell what Maisie thought herself of everything. She’s very young but even so she can tell (without showing her face) that she felt sad or indifferent and etc about the situation.

  • Reply lucas holtkamp November 21, 2018 at 5:49 pm

    Why is there so many dislikes

  • Reply Maisie xo November 22, 2018 at 1:39 pm

    Oh look… it’s my name

  • Reply Sama Sam November 26, 2018 at 8:01 am

    a video a bout maisie and she is not in it LOL .

  • Reply Katie Martell December 3, 2018 at 4:25 am

    Lose the somber music; hearing about a child who self harms like Maisie is somber enough. We had a foster child who self harmed and it was very hard.

  • Reply MrUranium235 December 15, 2018 at 11:54 pm

    again this story is about who????

  • Reply Theresa floresca December 17, 2018 at 11:56 am


  • Reply Pat Smallwood December 22, 2018 at 9:21 am

    Well we're is the daughter, what is wrong with her? I think the mom needs to be locked away.

  • Reply Ɱąժ-girlfriend December 23, 2018 at 9:57 am

    I cannot understand that accent. It sounds so bad

  • Reply Chloe Dearden December 27, 2018 at 1:47 am

    For some reason I thought maise was about 5 or older but not 13 cause when she said self harm that really was like a woah moment for a 5 year old to do that not to sound not caring if a older child was to do it but they are more prone to harming

  • Reply Jaymee McAliece January 1, 2019 at 1:12 am

    Simply move closer

  • Reply Scare Crow January 5, 2019 at 4:34 am

    A 1-2 hour drive? 70% of my mates have a 1-2 hour drive every day to their work, this is life in general. In this short clip this mom has talked about how SHE cant go out to party, how SHE has to drive, and how SHE has to pay for gas, and then she goes on to tell about how her 13 year old daughter feels guilty about HER having to pay for gas, she didnt just feel guilty about that herself, her mom put it on her. I could go on, For fucks sake Vice, this mother isn't going through SHIT!!!!. And shame on you for making this clip about her and how shes so brought down by a 1 hour drive and a bit of gas money, over her fucking 13 year old child in a mental hospital literally carving up her own body because of mental issues.
    Fuck you.

  • Reply Laura S January 10, 2019 at 9:55 pm

    She should get acquainted with this ministry many people have received miracles. He teaches about healing and believes God is still in the miracle working business. Nothing is impossible with God

  • Reply Tracey H January 15, 2019 at 2:33 am

    I have SPMI. I hurt my son. I've hurt myself. Hurt many many others. I'm deeply sorry. But…the system in Michigan won't help me anymore. I'm 2 months unmedicated in Michigan. I think they want us to off ourselves. Who will rise up and speak for us who are very ill. I realized I wasn't a treat to my family, but a burden. I'm in a weird group home. I live in a basement in a all black home. My family won't let me live w them. But I understand. What I don't understand is society. Why do they not treat us? It's like they want us to off ourselves. I'm so fucked

  • Reply peachy proncess January 16, 2019 at 4:05 pm

    Half of this video is just watching the mother drive

  • Reply Ja Day January 17, 2019 at 5:55 pm

    It's just the mum talking in a car. Terribly sad topic but useless producer / director.

  • Reply Ginger Kickboxer 666 February 5, 2019 at 7:46 pm

    My name is macy, not the same but I'm being tested for a mental disorder and I live in england.

  • Reply Tudor Andrei Raneti February 9, 2019 at 9:42 pm

    "psychiatry" is charlatanry and a weapon of state terrorism, and it never cured anyone of anything. It has been used against me by the Romanian "state" mafia, who perpetrated 8 Crimes against humanity to stop me denouncing its criminal activity

    Think. Why is NEVER anyone from the government bothered by the "psychiatrist" charlatans/terrorists? Because they work for the totalitarian governments around the world who accredit them to assasinate and discredit dissidents, while quelling overall dissent with mass poisoning of daily consumables such as water, salt and toothpaste, or hygiene products filled with neurotoxic benzoate and aluminium. You think the bacteria need "psychiatric" treatment, or you need a wee chemical lobotomization to make you susceptible to control and manipulation?

    All neurotoxic chemicals cause schizofrenia. Imagine a tree which is your thought process made possible by the neurological connections in your brain. Chemical lobotomization caused by neurotoxic chemicals, cut branches and even the trunk, destroying the thought process thus causing dysfunctionality. Furthermore by creating stagnant toxicity it destroys the brain ability to heal the mind. This is why these "treatments" never cured anyone, but destroyed the victim's ability to fight the charlatans who poisoned them. Ironically this is what the term "psychiatry" means, the atrophy or srinkage of the psyche or mind, by destroying it or its foundation the brain, through torture and poisoning. The "psychiatry" charlatanry ever used as "treatments" mercury, opium, heroine, fluorine and chlorine, all highly neurotoxic, all methods of "secretly" disposing of undesirables, even in plain sight. "Psychiatric" hospitals are nothing more than modern analogies to nazi concentration camps and soviet gulags, where historically detainees were chemically lobotomized with fluorine, just as they are today

  • Reply Geneviéve Augé February 10, 2019 at 3:26 am

    Why do i feel this little girl isn’t schizophrenic. I have a feeling she might actually be autistic but have gone undiagnosed because she is a female. Paranoia and self harm in girl on the spectrum are quite common as are other things. I feel like she might be one of the many girls who fly under the radar because she’s female.

  • Reply Carol Brock February 14, 2019 at 10:27 pm

    I have great compassion for you as a mom who has been through a living nightmare watching your beautiful Maisie suffer. I too have suffered from hearing voices in my ears and thoughts that are not mine. But, I learned in the Christian Holy Bible that there is an invisible war on Earth involving evil demonic spirits/fallen angels, who can speak into our ears all manner of thoughts. Also in the book of Matthew 4:1–11, you'll see that even the Lord Jesus Christ heard the voice of Satan the devil and demons voices when He was here on Earth. The Holy Bible tells us that after God had created the Heavens and the Earth, the first man Adam and his wife Eve, there was a great rebellion in Heaven by God's highest angel named Lucifer. Lucifer wanted to be worshiped and served and to be god. But, the Only One True God will not share His glory with anyone, so God cast Lucifer, the devil out of Heaven and 1/3rd of God's angels also rebelled and they are here on Earth involved in creating false religions and beliefs and deception; causing so much suffering, oppression and tempting people to sin against our God and His Commandments given to all mankind. The Lord Jesus Christ is the Son of God and He is God and created all things visible and invisible in the Heavens and on the Earth. Jesus helped me in this battle and can help anyone else who will believe God. Please listen to my story on YouTube at Hearing Voices: Real Help and Understanding
    Praying for you all, with compassion, Carol

  • Reply Lea Oxydeath February 15, 2019 at 10:23 pm

    An update for anyone who's interested.

  • Reply J J February 15, 2019 at 11:01 pm

    Bit confused. She seemed more bothered about the petrol bill to go and see her child! The title of this video needs to be changed to ‘Maisie’s
    Mum’s routine and her Car.

  • Reply Jackbnimble Zurc February 18, 2019 at 2:08 am

    don’t jump into conclusions or be exaggerated when you see your kids acting weird that’s part of being a kid and some children especially the little ones, they have an invisible friends and talk to themselves and as they grow up and matured this weird manners die down just give them some time….????

  • Reply a l February 24, 2019 at 1:22 am

    Mental health is man made? All these terms and diagnosis crap?
    Sighs…..!!!! When is Christ coming back?

    Thinking's thinking's thinking's….

  • Reply TheEmbo7788 February 24, 2019 at 11:19 am

    The story of the drive to see her more like…

  • Reply philomena phanthagia March 2, 2019 at 1:22 pm

    No real info re child M.I. just pics of a car on the road. Retitle mom's thoughts…

  • Reply Pat Smallwood March 9, 2019 at 1:18 am

    I also had a child young, still don't know what is wrong with the daughter, why is she in a Psy ward

  • Reply Dan Mart March 15, 2019 at 3:38 am

    Boring story about Maisie's mother! Deceptive and misleading title of this vid. What a WASTE of time. Where's Maisie?

  • Reply Vicki Trollip March 18, 2019 at 4:17 pm

    Good day
    A bit of my brain tumors

    I was about 21 when I was in a major train accident and had major head injuries and it left me paralysed for a few months or sooo as my pelvix bones were broken as well. I am a 50 year woman who worked for Nebank for 27 years then this traumatic events started . We were moving office from one floor to another and I fell up the stairs with boxes in my arms and aged 22 bumped my head that time my colleague laughed and said they never heard of a person falling up the stairs but only down the stairs.

    The doctor that time said my tumours is inherit from 3 generations meningioma and malaama passed and is stress related and he suggested that we move out of the residential area. Which we did. But neverless I lost everything my husband my beautifull plot my children my friends all my personal en sentimental belongings due to my personality changes, emotional insecurity, social phobia, memory loss, Nobody understood the changes in me, not even me do now. I had 4 brain operations over a period of 15 years. The first in 2001 half of my hair was shaved of to open my scalp to remove the tumour, the second 2002 the back of my left ear that leave me partial deaf the 3 rd in 2011 on my frontal right lobe eye what started with losing my eye sight the last in 2015 in my right frontal lobe.. which created a personality change which I battled to accept and it is difficult for my family as well. My children think I am putting up a act to get attention. I am losing my eye sight I think the last one was the most difficult one due to my age and it created a personality change which is difficult to accept by myself and family and I am scared for people that I did not know before the operation. I have no words to explain my condition, I cry every day and is tired and sleep most of the time. I am unbalanced and dizzy if I stand to long I cannot even go shopping. I went through a divorce and into a relationship which made every thing more confused as I did not understand why are everybody treating me like a baby and never left my side for 24/7. It felt that all know something but dont want me to know. I believed I was crazy but my family resued me. Well I believe I am able to cure with professional help / sponsorship or even if reseach is done on me to better technology. I am prepared to relocated for studies to be done on me. I want to be better a person with wealth and health and happiness and success and love than before. I am under 24/7 care but believe I am able to heal 100% with God on my side and professional help. I constantly change living arrangements within the family as they do not know how to handle my moods and I cannot live by myself . I have emotional issues as I cry a lot and my family want me save and happy. I have short term and long term memory loss and it seem that no one understand me and I have no reason to live anymore. I was once admitted to Akeso Clinic and one in Randvaal area but I turned out worse and know i am with family in Heidelberg always family with me 24/7 as I get lost and all funny things happen to me. So I am never alone….. I were everywhere with the family Durban, Cape Town, but had no professional help just loving family protecting and caring for me for the past 4 years.
    The Brackenhurst clinic referred me to Alberton North physo who wanted me go go to Sterkfontein hospital but my family said noooo
    Once a month the family comes together and dress me up and make me beautifull for photos but that makes me even more emotional. They love me soo much and also want to see me as I use to be and I know I am breaking theirs hearts as they see me deteriorating .

    My family know I won't ever be able to work due to this condition i have. I have both short and long term memory loss. I mix my words and numbers and are a threat to myself at home when left alone as i forget to put off the stove and to close the bath tap and forget who is who i drink the wrong tablets, gets lost looses count for 3 to 4 days etc. I need my family or fiance to give it to me on regular basis. . I do not want to be a burden to my family and want to know if there ever be a possibility that I can live a normal life again . I come out of a loving family with Christian upbrings and they support me 100% If not can you direct me in the right direction please. I am sooo scared and cannot go on this way of living I beg you out of my deepest heart to help to be a normal happy person again.

    I know I look normal but the problem is inside my confusing head and I cannot think as I used to think and do not remember what and when I do what and forget what I wanted to say someting.

    The knowledge I have cannot be taken away from me but My brain have difficulty to accept new information.
    ..I to apply for a disability grant at Sassa
    JA referred me to Nasa Smartmind in Heidelberg who is doing case studies on me currrently.. as I have breakdowns and loose count of 4 or 5 days at a time.. I know i am high maintenance but do not want to be a burden or a laughing joke to anybody.
    God is good….. All the time….
    I cannot go on living this confusing,depressed, joint stiffness,scary,trustless, helpless, suspicious, emotional, anxious, panicfull, frustrating, irrational, dizzy, impatient, constipated way.

    [02/28, 10:48] ICAS also referred me to Sanca in Heidelberg who said they will refer me to someone else. I am still waiting for their call…

    [02/28, 10:55] Vic: Icas reference me to Sanca in Heidelberg again 27/02/2018 and their response was the same as the last time. They cannot help me as my case is to complicated with my brain tumour and injury and with my long term memory and short term memory loss. But they gave me 2 numbers for dr in Vereeniging and in Alberton which my fiancee must phone for help.

    He did phone but one is over seas and the other one works on a cash basis which I cannot afford.

    Currently I am on prolax and epynoutin from the gov hospital in Heidelberg, Gauteng.
    I buy solal amino acid naturally high now, I used hpt5 before,
    And i also drink IPS energy tablets and need a serotonin increase

    How can I become a normal me again. ..

    I have recurring genetic multipule meningioma tumours and malamoma skin cancer according dr Snyckers,dr zorio and dr Torres-Holmes from Milpark. And they also said my brain do not produce serotonin (something inw my pineal glamd) any more.

    My name is AV TROLLIP and my date of birth is 18/06/1968. I live in South Africa. [email protected]
    I got your info from the Internet
    I am busy writing my story for 3 years now…

    The dr said I must write everything down, and I am 50 years old now and I think I am getting better as I am starting to accept my personality changes and God knows what He has planned for me…

    I meditate every night and listen to sounds to rewire my subconscious mind….i believe I am in a awakening stage but still very confused ..

    I know get my meds from Heidelberg gov hospital . The dr psychic at Heidelberg referred me to the Psychiatrist in Ratanda dr Thoka who want to atmit me to Tara in Sandton but must first have a panel interview with various drs at Sandton and a discussion with my family…..
    Die 12de Sept 2018 het Jan en Lief saam my gegaan na dr Thoka in Ratanda toe.  Hy het hulle verduidelik wat en hoe dinge en kuier tye gebeur en vir hoe lank ek in Tara moet wees vir behandeling en hulp en dat ek 50 ste op di waglys is om opgeneem te word by Tara in Sandton
    DR Thoka het ook al hulle vra en concerns  geantwoord

    I also try to live in the moment every day….i am a new me and want to grow further please help me as i need help to improve faster in my subconscious mind
    I am starting to accept the other me and must adjust to it. I want to grow further and improve my condition and knowledge of the consious and sub consious mind.
    My mental disorder can also be caused by my previous narcissistic marriages or child hood beliefs. I believe reseach could be done on my brain
    Altough I have both short and long term memory loss and know I won't ever be able to work in the open or public market as I am scared for people which I don't know or any other person from my previous life. I believe God is working within me giving me wisdom to heal

    JG DE LANGE on behalf of AV TROLLIP

    Sent from my Huawei Mobile

  • Reply Liamsr Archive April 1, 2019 at 10:28 pm


  • Reply John White April 14, 2019 at 1:25 pm

    her mum is so self centred

  • Reply Serrius LeDamaged April 23, 2019 at 11:38 am

    What an absolutely idiotic video. Whoever made this documentary should probably consider a new career path. This was a documentary of a woman taking a car ride to see her daughter.

  • Reply King of New York May 22, 2019 at 5:34 am

    Why would you post this video, VICE?? You know better.

  • Reply Jill T. May 25, 2019 at 2:07 am

    Take her to see Alba Weinman.

  • Reply Lala Addas June 16, 2019 at 5:22 am

    Well it's not a story about maise it's a story of how far the facility she's is from you, and how stressful it is for you….I learned nothing of maise or what she was even diagnosed with… this was not helpful.

  • Reply 56mastercarol June 21, 2019 at 6:12 am

    UK is lucky. In the US, they don’t hospitalize the mentally ill.

  • Reply викинг боиз June 22, 2019 at 11:03 am


  • Reply Angela Vela June 28, 2019 at 11:56 pm

    I thought this was about the child, everything is about mom. I have a hard time believing that she puts her kids first; both from this and how much she speaks about herself, how she feels, how this has affected her and little about her child.

  • Reply shiv June 30, 2019 at 9:41 am

    Heck my ma left me to marry a guy abroad while I pay all her debts and need to pay a million per month for my illness, Maisie's ma is amazing! I wish her well!

  • Reply super dude man July 3, 2019 at 9:07 am

    The chiald is bettn to deadh becose of doctors they are bettung her with police batons

  • Reply MUSIC LOVER July 4, 2019 at 4:04 pm

    God is cruel sometimes.

  • Reply Furqan Noor July 20, 2019 at 10:58 am


  • Reply Strong Independent Black Woman Who Need No Man August 2, 2019 at 6:17 am

    Any part 2 video about maisie??

  • Reply Namita Biala August 3, 2019 at 7:41 pm

    WARNING stop now you don't actually meet the daughter

  • Reply Abby Sowe August 18, 2019 at 12:24 pm

    I'm not sure this is something to be shared. What is important is for doctors to focus on research.

  • Reply alyssa caeytano August 23, 2019 at 7:51 pm

    Everyone is good & evil. Being able to see both is a hard thing.

  • Reply J M September 16, 2019 at 5:56 am

    Anyone suffering with suicidal thoughts just know you mean a lot you are meant to be here and cannot let negative emotions consume your life and happiness you got to keep strong no matter how hard it may seem

  • Reply Edward Tew September 21, 2019 at 9:41 am

    The mom brings up some real points about how mental hospitals work. They snatch vulnerable people up and isolate them in a strange place sometimes thousands of miles away from their hometown in an attempt to cure them. It's abusive.

  • Reply Lynda Pierson September 25, 2019 at 3:16 am

    misleading title

  • Reply Phil King November 3, 2019 at 11:50 pm

    What a stupid documentary! Wtf?!

  • Reply Travis Stevens November 8, 2019 at 1:43 am

    Seems like that free Healthcare is working really great there….

  • Reply Khaled Fheed November 18, 2019 at 7:49 am

    I tried a lot of treatments and did not find better than listening to the Koran to him it brings complete psychological comfort and heal the brain cells because it is heavenly God

  • Reply alex November 19, 2019 at 10:54 pm

    once again fathers never stick around

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