Hey guys, what’s up? It’s Alexa. Uhh, welcome back! Thanks for coming back. Um, I was filming a “what I eat in a day video” and I literally couldn’t get through it just because I didn’t feel like I was into it. And I just don’t really think it’s fair to make videos, for me and for you guys, if I’m just not really enjoying it. Because I feel like you just don’t make good content and that’s not fun. So I decided to just sit down and do another mental health Q&A just because I don’t even really know what else to make. I just feel like that’s kind of who I am as a creator for now, which also feels kind of horrible and I just didn’t really know I was going to react the way that I did and react so vulnerably and the past few weeks have been really, really weird since the first video talking about the hospital and the second one with like a follow-up and all my friends have been incredibly supportive and you guys have been incredibly supportive. And just kind of hearing what you guys have to say is absolutely amazing. Okay, so I just wanted to thank you guys for being so cool, and I wanted to do something for one of you guys that would hopefully brighten your day and um, I found all this and decided I wanted to give it to somebody so it’s just like 600 dollars worth of makeup. It’s like a lot of benefit stuff, um like some highlighters, an eyeshadow palette, just kind of like a little care package and I figured somebody would really, really love this so I’ll leave a link down below of how to enter, and hopefully somebody that wins is somebody that’s going through something and can get brightened up by this. So, yeah. “How do you feel about starting medication?” Um, medication has really personally helped me out a lot um, it makes life a lot easier so I think, I mean it’s not right for everybody and some people really disagree with me I think just have an open mind about it if you think it’s going to help you, maybe give it a shot. Talk to your psychiatrist. I don’t know! “How did you learn to cope with different symptoms that came along with illnesses?” Um, a lot of hard work, honestly that’s the thing, it’s like taking care of your mental health is a lot of work. It’s like having a full-time job. So I think I’m really not even fully in a place where I feel like I’ve coped with everything. I think if I was I would be making a “what I eat in a day” video currently. Life is totally hard. It’s really hard to cope with some things. There are some days where I can’t do much and I think the biggest thing is just learning how to accept that. And I think my also biggest thing is learning how to relax and take time for myself because if I don’t, I just end up spacing out and doing nothing for like an entire day it’s really bad. How did I keep up with school while I was in the hospital? Um, I kind of didn’t. Their whole thing is they only really let us do 3 hours of schoolwork a day So I just kind of did the bare minimum, took my tests when I had to, and I had to finish it up over the summer, but I actually ended up graduating early and, I had to finish up the work over the summer, which was a lot, but you know, priorities. “What’s something that gets you through a rough day?” Honestly, I have a few friends that I talk to about how I feel a lot and I typically will just like FaceTime one of them, call one of them, and they always do the same for me. So they just kind of get me through it and they really cheer me up. I have like probably 2 friends, specifically, that are just so supportive and amazing. And then I think if it’s one of those days where it’s just me, I’ll just go and do something or I’ll just be like, “Okay, I’m going to zone out and watch TV for a bit” Um, yeah, I just kind of try to do something, but some days I can’t pull myself out of it So… Advice for people with testing anxiety. I have horrible testing anxiety. Before I take a test, I’ve been known to have panic attacks, panic attacks during tests, Um, you can get a…most schools allow you to get a learning disability pass so when you’re taking tests you can either be in like a quiet room by yourself, or you might be able to have an extra like two hours It would take me, because I’m dyslexic, about four hours to take a math test. but I was allowed to have six hours, and I was allowed to come back. So I could like take the test for three hours and then come back the next day and finish the test. Um, but that was just because I had to get a learning disability pass. “Was it hard opening up to your friends about a mental illness?” Um, I think it was weirdly easier to tell the internet than it was my friends. A few people really knew about it, but now it’s like it actually is nice having all my friends know and it was nice kind of coming out with that to everybody at one time. But yeah no, it’s very weird talking about it with friends and I love talking about it now, because I feel like I’m kind of like set free in a sense but…yeah Somebody asked me how you cope with being heartbroken while you have depression. And I think this is literally one of the hardest things you can do in the whole world because you just…heartbreak is going to make you depressed. It’s like you’re mourning the loss of somebody that is alive that you want to reach out to but you can’t because they don’t want you in their life it just doesn’t work out for whatever reason it’s just still going to break your heart. And I feel like I’ve been properly heartbroken four times in my life by people that I loved so unconditionally and some were friends, some were people that I loved romantically everything, whatever. My friend Nick always tells me, he’s like, “Just get over it” Like, he’s like, “it sucks, but it’s not going to last forever” and I think it’s the same thing like when you’re depressed you feel like you’re going to be in this black hole forever and ever, but it’s like I’m still heartbroken. I’m still heartbroken, like there’s specifically like one friend that absolutely shattered me that I don’t know when I’m going to recover from it. I’m still like upset. But it’s like, what else are you going to do? Like, I don’t know. It sucks. It’s going to hurt. It’s going to hurt more than other people, but you know it’s life, I guess. I think that’s the best way to accept anything that’s sad. It’s just, it’s life. “How do you confront people when they say it’s trendy to have a mental illness?” When people try to make mental health trendy, it’s completely disrespectful because it would be like making diabetes trendy like everyone that has an illness doesn’t want it and I think if you’re romanticizing it, it might show that you do have a mental illness and you’re trying to kind of identify yourself through that, but it also, for people that don’t have it, people that are like, “Oh, I have to do this”, “I have to do that”, it’s like, you know there’s so many of us that actually really do suffer with that and that’s not okay. And, for example, I was at a Halloween party yesterday and somebody had like a psych ward outfit on and I was like, that’s just completely disrespectful to the people that have actually been there and know what it’s like. and you’re just like adding to the stigma of people being crazy when they’re not. They just have an illness. I kind of don’t want to do this anymore. I don’t want to cry on camera. I’m just like so in a mood, and I don’t want to talk to people. Yeah, I think this is probably my last video about all this. I said that last time, but I think for a while, this is the last one. I’ll probably make a video about dyslexia in the future. And then, I don’t know, if you guys have any other questions later, I’ll probably make one in a couple of months. probably around like Mental Health Awareness Month. So, um, yeah, let’s break the stigma. Let’s be kind to each-other, because you never know what that person’s going through that day. And um, yeah, if you guys want to try to get some makeup, there’s a giveaway. And I’ll be back with happier videos next week if you guys want to subscribe, I would love to have you back. And, until next week. Bye!